Am I ready to surrender to a different solution? If not, what is keeping me in my problem?
I have attempted to prove that I can’t be hurt, but I can be. At some point I have allowed this. I have been dishonest with myself and others and attempted to get some financial and other needs met in secret. In trying to create safety I actually make myself vulnerable. Again this is an attempt to gain some measure of control back. But it does not allow God to take care of those needs. By me doing a lousy job at getting my needs met on my own I am blocking God from protecting me in some areas and meeting those needs.
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